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Grace Wooden
Who wouldn't be happy with a house that could be on MTV cribs, and an indoor pool (with a diving board i might add.) Sounds like I?m bragging? I'm not. This is not my house, I?m not sitting on my boat writing this, and i only get a lousy $10 a week for allowance. I don't know anything about the house, except someone died in it. Apparently Matt O'Brian wasn't happy with his life, with enough money to buy a stable full of horses, and the 'sexiest' girlfriend in high school. He took his own life on Sunday, only leaving a note.
If you're reading this I'm gone, hopefully to a better place. The pills are going to kick in soon, and I?ll be gone, I?m very relieved at this realization, because I don?t have to deal with the bullshit that?s my life. DAD, MOM, SARAH, JOE, SYDNEY, all of you, I?m sincerely sorry, but I don?t want to just leave you guys wondering why, I don?t know if you?ll understand it, but I?ll try my best. Dad, how dare you. You know what you used to do to me, you know the secrets that are left untold, the hidden fear you have that someday the truth will come out; Well the day has come. Oh no, I?m not going to tell everyone you are. Go ahead have fun; I hope you go to hell. Mom, I love you, I love you so much. There?s nothing you could have done to stop it, in the grand scheme of things, this is my destiny. I?m sorry, but I know you love me, even if we fight, I know it, and I love you to, never forget that, and never forget me, that?s the one thing I ask for, even though I don?t deserve it, please? Sydney, I don?t know if mom and dad will ever show you this note, but I hope they do, at least I hope they read this part of the note dedicated to you. Your so young, your memories of me will slowly fade from you?re your head, but don?t forget me. I?ll never forget you, for whatever comes in the afterlife, you?ll always be in my heart, and I?m in yours. Don?t forget that, I?ve made a video of me and you, i have a million videos of us, because I wanted you to have something to remember me buy, and I hope this keeps our your memories of me alive, I love you. Joe, you?re the man, best friends since 5th grade, I don?t know if you know how much your friendship meant to me, but it really meant a lot. Video games all night? Sneaking out to parties? Shoplifting probably wasn?t our best idea, I love you man. Lastly, but not least, Sarah, my first kiss, my first love, my first everything, when we ended it really broke my heart. I still love you, so much, and it?s hard for me to admit that. I?m sorry, all of you.
Goodbye, love you all.
Mark O?Brian
Wimp, that?s what I think, but who cares what I think? I?m just the outsider, the strange kid, or freak show, whichever you prefer. I will say one thing though, Sydney O?Brian, his sister, I feel bad for her; she will now be the new me, nobody will know what to say. ?I?m sorry that your brother killed himself, how are you doing?? or ?hey Sydney, after your brothers funeral tomorrow want to go to the mall?? she?ll be known as the sister of the guy who committed suicide. This is the first suicide in 11 years in Belmont, Wisconsin. It?s a big deal, news reporters are practically knocking at their door, there?s so much commotion going on that nobody even notices me, sitting here on the boat like it?s the most normal fucking thing in the world. I just sit back, people have taken pictures of me, because they think I?m the mourning sister. Good thing my hoods up, and they can?t see my face. What a surprise the O?Brian?s are going to have when they see the headline of the local newspaper ?local senior commits suicide leaving family shocked? with a picture of me sitting on their boat, a total stranger. With a caption saying ?12 year old Sydney mourning in the mid hours of the day? haha, I wish I could see their faces.
Sydney O?Brian
I bet he didn?t think I?d be the one to find him. I bet he didn?t think I would have passed out; having mom come home to think both of her children had died. I bet he didn?t think of any of these factors. I may only be 12, but I understand death. My brother was 17, the only 17 year old who end up dead are the ones in car accidents, or spontaneous murders. My brother wasn?t involved in drugs, but he still ended up dying from an overdose; an intentional overdose.
the part that goes "if your reading this....." to the "love mark obrian" is his note.
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